BabyDan gate to go reveiw

I wanted a gate to put on the front door as we have a step down onto concrete from it, we've not being able to have the door open since lotties been on the move. So after having a look around we decided that the BabyDan Gate to Go would be best and as its on offer in Argos for only £16.99 it was the perfect solution.
The reviews in the Argos website weren't very good saying that it wasnt very sterdy and hard to install, but I cant push it out of the door frame (and iv tried) and its so easy to install. If you want to use it alot in the same place that you want to go through lots I can see that it could get annoying but its not meant for permanent use, and at 5'7" I can step over it. The only downside to it that doesnt matter to me anyway is that it is quite heavy, so if you did want to take it on holiday abroad it would take up a fair bit of your luggage allowance.
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Exx

TTC

The day after having my implant out last month i had bleed not sure if it was a period or just the effect of having the implant out, but last thursday i came on a proper period which means one thing WE CAN START TRYING TO CONCIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay finally this past month has felt so long, and although we didn't use protection once or twice we knew the chances we're so slim that we didn't worry about (although if we had become pregnant from it our due date would have been Lotties birthday, so glad we didn't lol). I am really nervouse about a few things, firstly that its going to take a long time, im so impatiant that i know that every month that my period comes is going to be heart breaking. i also think iv scared myself by reading into secondy infertility to much, the chances of it happening should be quite slim with me only being 20 but it can still happen. Another worry of mine is that that when i do get pregnant is that i have a really bad pregnancy and birth, after having such an easy time first time round. And also how im going to cope with a new baby and a toddler, i bearly moved of the sofa for the 1st month after lottie was born but it didnt matter because i only had the two of us to look after, so how will i cope being up all night then getting up and running round after lottie? i guess you just get on and and do it so many other people manage to do it, i just hope i can.

i dont want Lottie to feel left out or unloved because i want another baby so badly, or sound ungrateful that i already have one beautiful healthy child. to  me my family just doesnt feel complete and i wouldnt want Lottie to grow up on her own and not know what its like to have such a close friendship that only siblings have. And would hate for her to be spoilt. I also feel that she has alot of presure on her being the only grandchild on both sides bit especially L's, sometimes it feels like they treat her like shes a performing monkey.

Wish me luck!!!!
E xx

Good or bad news

On Thursday morning my boss said he wanted to have a word with me and instantly I thought im being sacked or made self employed! But after worrying all day what he was going to say he told me at the end of the day that iv got to have my hours cut down to 16 from 26. Well I didnt know whether to be happy or sad, because iv wanted to cut my hours down when came back from maternity leave, but we needed the money more so just had to get on with it. Now the choice has been made for me even though we're going to be absolutely broke im so happy I can be more of a stay at home mum like iv always wanted. And its given us the kick up the arse to clear all our debts with spare wedding money, so in theory now we should be better off anyway :) even though my boss said its only temporary till business picks up again I dont think I want to go back up to 26 hours! But we'll just have to wait and see how we get on. Thanks for reading xxelliexx

Terrible twos at 15months

Well its arrived the terrible age that iv been dreading since I found out I was pregnant. Lottie has started having temper tantrums! I really didn't think it would start for a few more months yet, but I think she just has similar personality to me, she knows what she wants and wont stop till she gets it. Im finding it so hard to know what to do, up untill now iv always been quite confident in what im doing with her, but disaplin wise I dont know how to go about it. So iv started just ignoring her, I'll put her safely on the floor (at home) and walk off till shes calmed down, then go over tell her why she was naughty/ explain that I understand why shes frustrated and then move on as quickly as possible distracting her with toys. Am I doing the right thing? Is this the best way with a 15month old? I really hope this phase passes quickly. Can anyone help?
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E xxx

Nice weather finally

Whats that yellow thing in the sky I dont think I recognise it?! So finally we have some nice weather and finally my washing pile is going down. Only problem is that I cant stand the heat, it makes me so bad tempered that I spend most the day in the shade. Unfortunately I think Lottie takes after me as shes been so crabbie and takes hours to get off to sleep at night because shes to hot.

Oops forgot to post this wrote it a few days ago as you can tell as its been raining for the last 4 day.

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The month thats been

Cant believe iv not blogged in a month, had such a busy and eventful month iv just not found the time. Firstly iv come off my anti-depresants, which has been a big step for me, I think im doing ok and when I feel abit anxious I know that I need to take abit of time out and approach whatever it is thats making me, rather than just leaving it and hoping it sorts it self out.
Also had my contraceptive implant out last week so very excited now as we've decided to start trying at the end of August, so even if we're lucky and it happens straight away I wont be more than 13weeks at the wedding. Im so excited to be pregnant again I loved it so much last time. I just hope it happens quite quickly as im so impatient and dont think I could take the disappointment of finding out im not every month.
Lotties growing into a little girl more and more every day I dont know where my little baby has gone. We had to take the side off her cot bed the other week after we found her nearly climbing over the top of it, so now she just has a bed rail, its so strange looking at her asleep in it, she just looks so grown up. Her walking is really coming on now shes getting more and more confident, up until yesterday she was always abit cautious outside and would want to hold your hand, but yesterday when we went to the fair she just set of walking, I think she wanted to go to the children's train and knew that I was talking to a friend while our partners were on the ride, so there was no chance that I was gonna go for a walk round with her, so she wiggled out of my arms and trotted off, luckly she had her reins on so couldnt get far away. So we'd go about 20 meters and go back and start again. Now we're trying to help get her speech better as she still not got many recognisable words, but she can babble for England in her own little language.
Me and L had a week off two weeks ago which was lovely to spend time as a family. We didnt do alot, just went shopping out of town one day, and took Lottie to her first friends birthday party, where she had great fun, although I got text two days later saying one of the children there had come out in chicken pox, think we've escaped it this time although I did really want to get it over and done with early.
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Holiday

Well me and Lottie have just got back after a lovely few days away in north Wales with my parents the highlight of the trip was defiantly taking Lottie to the sealife centre in rhyl, must say im not a fan of rhyl its very run down, she absolutely loved it I really can recommend the sea life centre, lots of things for kids even from a young age. The biggest news from our holiday was defiantly hme Lottie has started WALKING BY HER SELF :) and had lots of fun walking on the beach. I cant believe shes started walking its been a long time coming, we did think she'd be walking by 10months but she just never seemed to get the confidence until now. so I guess this is when the fun really starts.
E xxx