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Showing posts with label trying to conceive. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trying to conceive. Show all posts

Wednesday, 24 April 2013

long time no blog -a catchup

We've been very busy since I  last blogged so going to do a quick catch up and hopefully from now on keep it more up to date. Our biggest news is that we're expecting baby no. 2 (Pudding) and due May 23rd.

4.5weeks - Monday 17th September 2012- Having done a pregnancy test on the Friday what I thought was 4 days before my period was due I was disappointed but not surprised to see only one blue line, as it was only our 1st month of TTC. I still have no idea why, while bathing Lottie on that Monday night, I felt the need to do another test I'd had no symptoms  and was sure that I wasn't, but as I was going to put it in the bin I noticed a very faint blue line. It took five days and 8 pregnancy tests to assure me that it was real. I think the thing that shocked me most was that it was only our first month of trying and I'd been preparing myself for at least 3. After finding out I put Lottie to bed as calmly as I could and went down stairs to  wait for Mr to come home from work. I put the test In an envelope and gave it when he walked through the door he guessed as soon as I handed it him, but we promised not to get excited (although we did) until the blue line was stronger.

10.4weeks - Sunday 28th October 2012- Had my booking appointment at home and although I was disappointed that I didn't have the same midwife that I had with Lottie, my new one is lovely and is brilliant at reassuring me that I'd be able to have a home birth and despite having a very quick labour with Lottie that a midwife would make it to me in time.

12.5weeks - Tuesday 13th November 2012- Our twelve week scan. Just as amazing as it was with Lotties, for me its the time when the pregnancy becomes real. I realised that this baby is going to be a lot more awkward than Lottie was, as the baby wouldn't get in the right position for the sonographer to see everything, but after a bit of jumping about and a walk around the waiting room pudding decided to get into the right position. Everything was fine and my due date was moved up by two days.

13.1weeks- Friday 16th November 2012-  Felt like a living nightmare, started out as a normal Friday morning got up, took Lottie to nursery and went to work, but after an hour I started to get a terrible cramping pain, after half an hour I felt like I needed to go home, but on the way to tell my boss I realised I was bleeding as well. In a panic with the help of some of the other staff I rang every phone number I had with me, the local midwife led unit (MLU) had been closed in the summer, so every person I rang told me I'd phoned the wrong place. Thankfully the people I worked with were amazing and took me straight to the local minor injuries unit where the MLU used to be and some midwives base them selves there, luckily when I arrived there was a midwife there picking up some paperwork, so she rang though to the hospital for me.   I was told to go home and wait for them to phone me to arrange an emergency scan. 5 hours later I finally got the call and was told to call them on the Sunday morning. The next 40 hours were a blur. We tried to prepare ourselves for worse but as I lay in bed on Saturday night I was sure I felt a flutter of a kick, but tried to dismiss it as my mind playing tricks on in, in hindsight I think it was Puddings way of letting me know they were okay. The next morning at the scan they found every thing was fine and as it should be, they think that I had a blood clot somewhere but couldn't figure out where it had come from as it should have shown up on my 12week scan.

15.2weeks- Saturday 1st December-  We did it. After two years and two months of  planning we tied the knot. It was a beautiful clear December afternoon, as the ceremony finished it was just going dark so the church lit up beautifully with candles and fairy lights. Everything went pretty much to plan I just can't believe how quickly the day went. When you get married every ones favourite question seems to be does it feel any different and for me the answer was most definitely NO! Other than a lot phone calls to make and copies of the marriage certificate to send off it feels no different for me, with us already living together and having Lottie we'd been living like a married couple for the past two years. It is nice having the same surname as Lottie now though and makes me feel like we're a proper little family. Our honeymoon was in Chester for 2 nights, which even though doesn't sound a lot for a honeymoon was plenty for us and we missed Lottie to much to have any longer away, although I think  she was having to much fun staying with Grandma and Grandad to notice that we'd gone.



20.5 weeks - Tuesday 8th January - 20week scan. Pudding behaved at this scan, and is doing brilliantly, looks like he/she is going to be similar to Lottie as the stomach was measuring about a week behind the rest of the body, so the sonographer wasn't worried about it. We have decided not to find out the sex again this time as we already have a lot of nutral things, and will be such a nice surprise when they're born.

21.6 weeks - Wednesday 16th January- Move house. after weeks of packing (its surprising how much crap you collect with children) we moved house.

23.1weeks- Friday 25th January-  Redundancy. As if I hadn't already just been though enough stress my boss decided to dump this on. I was been made redundant as of the next week. I honestly could not believe it, he only had to keep me on another 6weeks and I could of gone on maternity leave, luckily I was still entitled to maternity allowance, but I'd have go near enough 8weeks before I got my 1st payment. Unfortunately this means that I will have to find another job when Puddings only 6months old which for me still seems to young to send to nursery although I don't think I'm going to have a choice as there is no way we can survive on one wage.

29weeks - maternity leave officially starts. for the next 9 months we can stop worrying about money as my maternity allowance has started and get the 1st payment in two weeks time.

30.4 weeks Monday 18th march- Reduced fetal movements. Over the last few weeks I'd kept debating whether I should ring the maternity unit as I wouldn't feel Pudding kick for ages then just as I was about to ring they would give me a few kicks, so I'd decide against it. But this time I'd had enough of just assuming everything was okay and after not feeling any movement in 16 hours I rang up and was asked to come in for a CTG. Typically whilst having the CTG Pudding decided to kick me 37 times, I felt so stupid but at least it put my mind to rest and I could sleep better at night and not keep lying awake worrying.

I will be trying to keep the blog a lot more updated from now on, so please come and see how we get on with baby no. 2.
Thanks for reading  E

Tuesday, 21 August 2012

TTC

The day after having my implant out last month i had bleed not sure if it was a period or just the effect of having the implant out, but last thursday i came on a proper period which means one thing WE CAN START TRYING TO CONCIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay finally this past month has felt so long, and although we didn't use protection once or twice we knew the chances we're so slim that we didn't worry about (although if we had become pregnant from it our due date would have been Lotties birthday, so glad we didn't lol). I am really nervouse about a few things, firstly that its going to take a long time, im so impatiant that i know that every month that my period comes is going to be heart breaking. i also think iv scared myself by reading into secondy infertility to much, the chances of it happening should be quite slim with me only being 20 but it can still happen. Another worry of mine is that that when i do get pregnant is that i have a really bad pregnancy and birth, after having such an easy time first time round. And also how im going to cope with a new baby and a toddler, i bearly moved of the sofa for the 1st month after lottie was born but it didnt matter because i only had the two of us to look after, so how will i cope being up all night then getting up and running round after lottie? i guess you just get on and and do it so many other people manage to do it, i just hope i can.

i dont want Lottie to feel left out or unloved because i want another baby so badly, or sound ungrateful that i already have one beautiful healthy child. to  me my family just doesnt feel complete and i wouldnt want Lottie to grow up on her own and not know what its like to have such a close friendship that only siblings have. And would hate for her to be spoilt. I also feel that she has alot of presure on her being the only grandchild on both sides bit especially L's, sometimes it feels like they treat her like shes a performing monkey.

Wish me luck!!!!
E xx